Father
God, a few days ago, I received a prayer chain email from my Pastor’s wife back
home. “Please pray for this particular church member. He was in a tragic house
fire and is in critical condition.” All it took was the mention of this man’s
name to cause me to shy away. I am not
sure why, but this man and I had never quite hit it off. Sparse conversations
had often left me feeling uneasy. That’s why, praying for him now with a
sincere heart, would truly be challenging. I paused, scratched the side of my
face and wondered, “What should I pray for?” I knew had to lay my personal
feelings aside. But, I was struggling. By now, a few of my fingers had settled
on my lips while my thumb pressing in on one cheek. Then, with a deep breath I
powered through. In my heart I whispered to the LORD, “Please Jesus, help this
hurting man. Take away his pain. Please,
LORD Jesus! In Your holy name, Amen.” There
were no tears, just a quick moment filled with compassion. A quicker prayer
than normal. Then, a few days passed by without a giving the situation a second
thought.
That
was until today when something unbelievable happened. For the first time ever, I
heard You speak my name. I had just jumped in the shower. Suds piled upon my
head. My eyes were closed when I heard, “ Donna, Donna.” Immediately, I felt
taken aback. Your voice was powerful and instantly commanded my full attention.
It was inaudible, yet unmistakable!
The
sound of my name was followed by a quiet thought that seemed to just pop in my
head. “Go see him. He is waiting for you!” I knew right away who You meant. You
wanted me to visit the church member who was suffering in that burn center. Just
then, the soap began to burn my eyes. I squinted, while reaching for a
washcloth and replying out loud, “I don’t quite see Your plan here LORD.”
Then,
while rinsing my eyes, I found myself retreating into my own thoughts. “Why me Jesus? Surely, there are
people who love this particular man who are more suited to pay him a
visit.” I reasoned. That’s when Your
call repeated in my mind. “Donna, Donna. Go.” Setting all my feelings aside,
I said, “Here I am Lord. Send me.”
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