Comforter of the broken-hearted, today while feeling low regarding my husband’s unknown whereabouts, I drove to the local Family Christian store to purchase a bible for someone. I always feel better serving someone else during times when I begin to grow weary. As I walked around the store, pondering the significance of today’s date and all that has happened since that night in the jail holding cell, a movie called “Amazing Love” caught my eye. It was on sale. So, I decided to buy the movie. Then, I came straight home.
While sitting alone in our living room trailer, I grieved in silence. “My husband doesn’t want me anymore,” I thought as I tearfully watched the biblical story of the prophet Hosea and his marriage to his unfaithful wife Gomer.
During one scene, Hosea cried out to You. He had caught his wife in another lie regarding her whereabouts. I had to pause the movie. Tears were rolling much too fast to see the television screen in front of me. With the movie on pause, I shared a heart to heart moment with You. “Lord, every time my husband lies about his whereabouts my heart aches and I feel isolated, lonely and rejected. Why do you allow such pain?” No answer. Instead, pure silence!
After a few more minutes of feeling sorry for myself, I wiped my eyes, took a deep breath and pressed play on the DVD remote. At that very moment, one of the actors in the movie asked the same exact question. “Why would God allow Hosea to feel so much pain?” I held my breath for the answer. “Perhaps God wanted Hosea to know how He feels.” Another actor replied. I sobbed.
After I composed myself, I began to pray. “Oh LORD,” I softly said out loud. “Could You be trying to show me the depths of Your love for me? Even when I rejected You, all those years, Your love remained devoted. Now, I am completely devoted to You. Jesus, will YOU marry me?”
Afterward, I opened my bible and allowed the pages to settle. The sheets of paper amazingly landed on Matthew 22, the parable of the wedding banquet. Unbelievable!
“And Jesus answered and spoke to them again by parables and said: “The kingdom of heaven is like a certain king who arranged a marriage for his son, and sent out his servants to call those who were invited to the wedding; and they were not willing to come. Again, he sent out other servants, saying, ‘Tell those who are invited, “See, I have prepared my dinner; my oxen and fatted cattle are killed, and all things are ready. Come to the wedding.”’ Matthew 22:1-4 (NKJV)
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